christmas blessing

God is gracious and merciful and faithful...

wooh!! been a looooong time since i updated...and no! i still don't have a myspace account hahahah!

my family went to Fresno and San Francisco after christmas and the Lord was gracious to set people in our path who led us to my long lost family on my father's side. i've always believed there were only the three of us in the U.S. Yet, in His timing, He has shown me how rich i am in family. i have my church family and people in the neighborhood who are close as family.

And now, i have blood relatives who live in New Hampshire and Fresno, and i think one in Sacramento.

when we set on our journey, we didn't know what to expect. we weren't even entirely sure if we would find them. yet God is merciful because after knockin' on many doors, we found them and they were so welcoming. we laughed constantly and we have so many things in common. we went bowling, watched movies, played monopoly and card games, listen to music, went out to eat. but the most precious thing of all, was when we had rich fellowship with one another: sharing our thoughts and opinion, our future plans and past failures, embarrassing moments and even our flaws. they are one of the most educated, beautiful, respectable, hard working citizens i have met in a Khmer community. and i'm not just saying that cuz they're my family either ^_^ keekee

if you don't believe me, check out pixs to the right hahahaha
u gotta love my family cuz i love them and most importantly, Jesus loves them more heheh

i am blessed beyond imagination and i await for His timing for me to meet the rest of my family. i am thankful by God's gift to me this Christmas. my Daddy God, your love for me is eternal and what you give me are invaluable. I am at lost for words of praises and worship and only pray that what lies in my heart is loud enough to glorify you and gives evident of how i love you. i am awed and continually humbled by each path and plans you reveal for my life. In you, i know i am secure

Fighting My Professor, The Scholar

I have taken two English Literature courses with a Professor of mine. He is one of my favorite and most admired professor. He is a qualified scholar and i love when he lectures even if most of what he lectures on are repetitive every semester. He always mention the bible in class because of the role and influence the bible have on Literature. He claims that he teaches on all points of view and facts he himself have researched on for years. What he doesn't realize is that 80% of his so called points of view are against the bible. His common argument is that not everything in the bible is true; especially events in the old testament. Well, here is the one against Sodom and Gomorrah Professor!

The discovery of Ebla and the tablets gives evidence that Sodom and Gomorrah existed and is not just twocities in a story made up to illustrate the wrath of God.

http://www.saudiaramcoworld.com/issue/197802/ebla-city.of.the.white.stones.htm

reliable and unbiased source of the discovery of Ebla

http://www.abu.nb.ca/ecm/topics/arch5.htm
the critic who doesn't believe that the place belongs to sodom and gommorah

http://www.icr.org/index.php?module=articles&action=view&ID=92
the writings on the tablet

http://www.xanga.com/GOODGREYPOET/440457555/item.html
the guy who ties everything up

For more info...take the time to do your own research if you truly are seeking the truth.

complaining, babbling and simply sinning

aye ya!! continuing from yesterday...i thought today would bring a better day but as the Word says: Therefore, do not be anxious for tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own Matt 7:34 NASB.

my, my...does Jesus know what he was talking about!

i woke up early today unwillingly to drive my beloved sis to work and then dropped off the car at Saeed's. i ran home to finish reading my Brit Lit assignment, looked at the time and screamed, rush off for the bus because i left home with only 3 minutes to spare until the bus was schedule to arrive. Then as soon as i sat down on the seat and the bus was rolling along, i remember i left the black folder which happens to contain my application, which i was suppose to hand to my teacher after class and rush as soon as possible across the valley to turn it in before 5pm. With five minutes until the class start, there was nothing i could do but wait to print it out again after class.
Yes, the dear printer...which i walk half way across the school campus to get a hold of, only to find out that it wasn't working. the staff who helped me was entirely unhelpful because she kept restarting the computer to figure out what was wrong. There was a big sign on the board which tells us the printer wasn't working. Obviously it wasn't big enough because she and i were completely oblivious to it. Or maybe because two fustrated people are not too keen in caring to look around...
After a short hustle and bustle, i stormed to the library praying aloud for an available computer; and there was...yay! praise God! Then i ran across the campus again to my teacher's office but a note greeted me instead. He thought i would have returned back sooner, unfortunately he has a meeting and will return at 230pm. wonderful!! so now i find myself having to meet a friend , a teacher, and a bible study, all at 230pm. this should be a day for 230. maybe i should look up verses with numbers consisting of 230. *sigh* so much for my resolve in trying to wing it today. no way siree...

and now, after sitting here, i am truly ashame of myself and realize that i have been sinning. my thoughts, my attitude, my response...my whole everything...Daddy God, i find myself paying the consequence of disorganization and procrastination again. Forgive me for i have sinned. Help me to defeat it Daddy!

We will see what else is in store today...it is not over yet!

deadlines!!!

Boy oh Boy!!! Yep, just another typical college lesson that will continue to go unlearned. Procrastination seem to lurk its deceiving head endlessly and i fall prey to it every time. I find myself trying to pull a stubborn rabbit out of the magician's hat once again. Deadlines are quickly catching up with me and i already missed a scholarship opportunity because i missed the deadline. i had to go back to school three times today to turn in a sample of my writing to the writing lab because i applied for a position there. I only beat the closing time by 5 minutes. phew!

Then i had to rush home to fill out my financial aid application to beat the priority deadline tomorrow. I turn another corner and realize that my EOP application is also due tomorrow. But i need someone to fill out a letter of recommendation and try to turn it in by tomorrow before 5pm. AAAggghhh! Thank god for Professor Moore, who agreed to take out a chunk of time out of his busy schedule to fill it out for me tomorrow after class. Yay!!! Thank God for a leaf of grace! Then it dawned on me that i won't have the car tomorrow and i have to meet with a friend at 230pm. Oh boy, what am i going to do?? So i thought, no problem. i'll just drag him on the bus with me tomorrow..hahha then i halted, Dope!! he has a math class at 4pm...*sigh* Oh well, i'm going to wing it tomorrow and see what happens.

yes, procrastination...can i ever out grow it, out live it, out best it, or just out with it completely??? because, after this weekend, there are exams and essays waiting in line to overwhelm me. i better start sparring with it or i won't make that 4.0 resolution hahah

My friendz and their identity

It's so hard sometimes to not be able to hang out with your closest friends when you want to. Thanks to all of you who have called me to let me know you forgave me for not calling you...hahah

Even though i haven't had the chance to hang out with them, God has been faithful to show up and give me opportunities to meet new ones. There were two people i met today and it started out like a typical :strangers, block of ice , me: type of thing. So i struck a conversation with them. I asked the usual question to chip away the ice between us and it seem to get no where for awhile because i only got one word replies. but, stubborn old me, just couldn't given in and let that block of ice win. so i asked them to pick only two words to describe who they were. The guy Derek said, "I'm Cold" and Lindie said "I'm dorkie". so i'm like...ooookay....and then Bam!!! God ushered me to give them two words that would describe them as God would describe them. To Lindie i said "you are God's Jewel" To Derek i said "you are His Precious"

And in that moment their countenance changed and something lit in their eyes. Lindie gave me a hug and Derek just kinda smiled at me but i knew something inside of him was chipping off.

God is so awesome and so incredible and only He knows how to provide the need of His children accordingly. I don't know what God is doing inside of them but i know that somehow, they went home knowing something about themselves they never knew before; their identity in Christ is not what they thought it was. Praise the Lord!!

hahah where...?

Has anyone laughed with God recently?? You should try it..it is such an amazing experience. Anyone who has been around me and cared enough to notice, knows that i love to laugh and i laugh about a lot of things. i especially love to laugh with God. i will share only one thing that God and I have laughed about together recently...
because i think in the other occasions, others might not see it as a laughing matter...and because it will make this blog so long, someone would hunt me down and hide the keyboards from me...hahaha

So, the first thing is how God aligns my path to fit his will. last Friday i helped an old friend move to another location. Knowing that God is soveriegn, it didn't hit me until two days ago, that the King of my life was trying to confirm my prayers through my friend. we had a great talk while taking a breather from lifting boxes to just catch up on life since i haven't seen her in ages. we were talking about trusting in God and i told her about a vision the Lord gave to me four months ago and how that vision is being played out in my life right now.
And one of those things is in regard to the ministry the Lord has called me to do on the school campus. There are many problems that prevented me from starting this ministry and one of the reason is that i will be transfering to another school for the spring semester and it is extremely unrealistic timewise, to juggle all that i am doing now, and keep a double enrollment in order to do this ministry. But i know this is what God is calling me to do and doing God's will is priority. so i considered enrolling in only one class in the spring and taking the rest at my current school. the other plan is to just stay at my current school and start the other school in the fall instead... even if it meant prolonging my credentials another semester.

and the word of wisdom that God spoke through her was: "something is going to happen that' ll stop you from enrolling in the spring semester; it could even be something small like all the classes being full or something. it usually happens because you need to stay at your school.

so what did happen??? nope, it wasn't because the classes i need were closed. two days ago i found out the 5 unit math class i am taking in the winter aren't transferable units. does that mean i am short five units??? nope! i only needed 1 unit to hit the 56 unit minimum requirement but i took this math class to get a head start on my minor and in the process, obtain this missing 1 unit. but, hahahaha, now i am short one unit. All of this because i accidently registered for the wrong class by entering the wrong section number. instead of math 245, i'm taking math 120. even when i printed out my class schedule it didn't occur to me to check it thoroughly. and when i found out it was a geometry class, i was alittle surprise but that didn't register and faze me either. hahaha

so i called the school to find out if it would be a problem and they said that it wasn't and i can still register for classes. the only thing is i would be a sophmore instead of a junior until i complete the one unit. Even so, i asked them to roll over my application to the fall semester anyway. what other confirmation do i need right?

Then God gave me something more to laugh about. immediately after that, i wanted to set an appointment with a counselor to talk about my DAR but i couldn't find a listing for the counseling office. So i figured i should just call any number and ask them to transfer the call to the dept. i need. i chose the EOP office since i wanted to ask them about applying anyway. knocking down two birds with one stone, i thought. They told me that EOP doesn't accept application for the Spring and i won't qualify if i tried for the fall semester since they do not help those who are returning students. what??? this is so hilarious. God knew that if i started in the Spring...i wouldn't be able get financial help. hahahah I laughed so loud and long, my momma thought i was crazy.

God is an awesome God and i love laughing with him. i must say that God loves laughing with us but most of the time we just don't understand or appreciate his humor. i didn't just laugh because he showed me why i shouldn't worry about my future. but in the midst of all this, i laugh because he subtly reminded me that if i just obeyed, all will fall into place. **and that goes for the ministry which will happen in the spring semester. hallellujah!!!