so where was i? oh yeah...ever since the Lord took me on that reality trip, i have examined my life a little bit closer and i did pretty darn well, if i should say so myself. But lately, i have been so busy with everything i am involved in that i let those things crowd him out, even though those very things are part of his ministry. I said to myself, once these things are over and done with, i know i can do much better for Him. He deserves everything of me and not the left over...and so with this thought i continued my day...
yes...one day leads to another, until i finally got a wake up call from God. this past Friday was our youthworker meeting and i kinda knew what we were going to talk about and of course God who is always in the midst of us, speaks profoundly through Alex ( our high school pastor). i mean, no one left there the same way as they came to the meeting...every time! But i was not prepared for what the Lord would say to me personally.
What God said to me was, the time is NOW. why do i have to wait until so and so is completed? I need to do it now. There are people dying now, this very second. the adversary is not going to pause his attacks on God's people just because I don't have time to do battle. In fact, he takes advantage of these moments when i am busy to do his worse because he knows i am not available. that's one less worker for the kingdom of God that he has to deal with.
When i thought i couldn't handle anymore breaking at the moment, the Lord proved me wrong. I came home that night on my knees and crying my heart out. I have never cried so hard in my life. it was like worse than hurricane Katrina...seriously. i was in the backyard in the middle of the night crying into a pillow so i wouldn't wake anyone up.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
6 comments:
dear Ronsaren, I am encouraged by your godliness.
i only wish i could say the same for myself
a little off the subject.
but i was thinking about how God worked his hand in using your sister to give bruce the flyer. and how he's used you along in the grand scheme of things. it will definitely be an amazing thing to watch unfold with the high schoolers community uniting.
i agree, just like pastor paul said, demons don't take vacations. they're out there trying to devour in the unseen realm of spiritual warfare. think of how long it took gabriel to get to daniel in the book of daniel. he was held up for 21 days but the force behind the king of persia. it's intense! i better quit here, i'm tangenting.
yea...ure rite...i seriously believe we will have another great awakening in this generation. i felt it coming since last year, and then, Pastor Alex spkoe my thoughts in his messages. i'm like, whoa! God, you are truly a confirming God
hey, what's tangenting?
i agree, i see that there is a huge huge huge awakenning that's about to happen and i see it too.
Post a Comment