my momma

i love my momma so much. she is one of the most intelligent people i know, though she would not admit it herself. she doesn't think she is smart just because she didn't get very far with her education. she has a lack of confidence though i see and know that when the occasion arises, she handles business. she is fiesty and yet adorable. i laugh every time i think of how our neighbors react to her. they truly respect her and they would never want to be on her bad side. i remember a time when she almost beat up a guy. phew! that was a sight to see. Two people were holding my mother back. And the guy never came near her again. But not to give you such a negative opinion of my mother, God has changed her tremendously thus far. i wish i can say it was in her BC days but then, she's still in her BC days. hahah

Maybe i can call it the CC days (Christ constructing days...heehee)

For the past 6-7 years, i have seen the changes in her and the character that God built inside of her. She is brave, strong and i am one of her biggest fan (besides my sister that is) I always wondered why God would allow me to be born as her daughter and now i know. She is one of the sharping iron and sand paper in my life. We all have christian mentors and i have two very important mentors who i consider as my spiritual mothers. But none of them has impacted me as much as momma has.

Because of her mistakes, she makes me stronger and wiser in making decisions in my life. Because of her non verbal love for me i learned to discern and read between the lines. Actions tells more than what is presented and how we perceive them to be. Because of her strength i learn what it means to persevere. Because of her discipline i learn to be the person i am today. There are so much more. But most importantly, i see God through her even through the toughest time of my life. It was God who gave her strength and taught her how to rightly discipline me. All Glory shout outs are yours Daddy!!

My greatest nightmare of becoming more and more like her turned into a blessing because i love who i am today and God used her to shape me into who i am. And no matter how much she tells me that my strongwill and stubborness comes from my dad, i am convince i got it from her.

Who ever is reading this, my homiez or even someone who just surfed through. Please take a moment and think how your mother have made you who you are today. whether or not she is the ideal mother, abusive or non abusive, always there when you needed her most or not, God placed her in your life to produce the characteristics he wanted you to have.

How you respond to it though makes a world of differences. Praise God for all the mothers, even for those who abandon their child because when the child grows up, he or she can thank God for his ever present help once they see through the deception and provocation of the devil.

p.s give yo momma a holla