rambling

Time to register for classes again...

Everytime i have to register for classes, i always think: when am i ever going to graduate??
And when i am in class, i think: when will this semester be over?
When finals are over and i'm not in school, i think: I'm bored. When will classes begin again?

Regret: verb
1.
to feel sorry and sad about something previously done or said that now appears wrong, mistaken, or hurtful to others
2.
to feel sadness about something, or feel a sense of loss and longing for somebody or something that is no longer there

i meet a lot of people who have something in the past that they regret. maybe they made a stupid mistake or chose to walk down a wrong path. but one thing for certain is that they always wish they can turn back time and correct it.

i know i hate to regret and i know that there isn't a time machine we can hop into like "Back to the Future" movie. that's why i always say i have no regret. if i make a mistake i ask myself: well, what have you learned from it and what are you going to do about it?

But sometimes i feel that i am lying to myself. there are things in my life i wish never happened or decisions made that i thought: if only i made this choice instead. but i never thought of it as regret because i'm not really sorry that it happen. if it didn't happen, i wouldn't be where i am and who i am today.

now the dilemma is: i am not quite sure if i am okay with where i am and who i am today. what a confusing state.

Therefore, i don't believe i have any regrets in my life where i want to go back in time to change it because i know thinking that way is useless since i can't go back in time to change it. but i do feel sorry that it happen. then again, i am thankful that it happen. i also don't long for the lost times either.

then maybe, i just have like a half regret type thing...hahaha

and why am i rambling about this? it all started with registering for classes...hahaha

but when you get as old as i am and you see younger people graduating before you, you ask:
what is taking me so long and how did it happen?

i kinda sat there calculating how many more years left 'til graduation and then of course after one minute, i get up and go get a can of soda and watch tv with my mom hahahahaha

what am i thinking about??? i need to enjoy all of my vacation time because i only have three more stress free week left.

maybe this explains why i'm still in school...hahahah