Wednesday, March 25, 2009

empty randomness

(1) i watched a movie online about a strict teacher who would not compromise the way she taught though the students and other board members thought it outlandish and cruel. she told them the harsh reality of life and emphasized the importance of studying. she said:

"studying should not be something you must do, but what you do to become a great person"

(2) i arrived early for my meeting today and stood on the veranda that provided a wonderful view of the valley. i can see the top of the mountain on the east, the mountain on the north, and the valley. what an amazing view it was. the sunshine on my tilt face warming up my skin from the morning cold. the peaceful air surrounding me because no one was around yet with their poisonous, obnoxious cigarette smokes. i thought to myself: would i have enjoyed this moment the way that i am now if i didn't believe in Jesus Christ? would i have enjoyed this moment now if my life was going the way it should be? i am a shell. within me is the breath of life. i am a temple. i am made for worship. i am ronsaren. i belong to God.
after that, i said amen and headed toward the crowd of people behind me who have gathered while i was pondering these thoughts. i walked through the door and shook my head. i am...one complex confusion.

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